The first blog of many on my road to thinness

This is my first "real" blog. I'm taking the idea from a friend of mine, to track my day to day progress of my new healthier eating schedule.

Let me start with some basics about me. I am a 31 y/o, happily married woman from Pa. I have been overweight all my life. I had to deal with kids in school making fun of me because I had to wear boy shoes, because my feet we're too wide for the cute girl shoes. I went to a catholic grade school, where we had to wear hideous plaid jumpers. It was never easy for a chubby girl in school; and well I was the chubby girl.

My mom had tried many times to get me to eat better, but that was always wrecked by my great-aunt. My great aunt never had children of her own, so letting me have the third piece of pizza at 10:00pm was ok to her. There was no reason I shouldn't be allowed to eat the chocolate eclairs, donuts, cookies or cake. Yes I could blame her for myself being overweight but I could have stopped when I got older. I think I was just so used to eating that way, that it was easier just to continue. Along with making me feel much, much better. Now I battle with being morbidly obese and severe depression as a result of being obese.

I've had doctors try to put me on liquid diets at the age of 13, I've seen 2 nutritionists a few different times. I have tried starving myself, binging and purging, I've tried just purging. Then a few years ago I found these wonderful little pills, they gave me more energy, helped me eat less and I was losing weight. Unfortunately, about a year of using them I started not feeling very well, I looked great but felt like shit. I would get light headed, and my heart would start racing. Almost to the point where I couldn't make it stop. But hey I was down to 179lbs for the first time that I could remember. But then one day while I was at work, my heart started racing and none of my little tricks to get it to stop worked. Next thing I knew my boss told me that they had called the ambulance and they were on their way for me. When they finally got me to the hospital, my heart was beating 180 beats per minute. They like to call this super ventricular tachycardia or SVT for short. They gave me a shot that actually stopped my heart from beating, just to try and get it to reset itself. Thankfully it did, if not they would have had to use the defibrillator on me. Not something I was looking forward to. My heart surgery was scheduled for Valentine's Day, talk about a new meaning to the phrase "A broken heart" lol.

So here I am almost 7 years since that surgery and I'm still morbidly obese. I have to say I'm sick and tired of being fat, obese, overweight, a little chunky, whatever you want to call it. I am fat and I need to change, and fast. So I'm now on to my like 10th time on Weight Watchers and as long as I can I'm going to stick to it. I started back on WW on 12/31/07, and so far I'm down 5.8lbs, so that is a start. I will definitely be blogging and marking my progresses on here.

Just for information purpose I have included the clinical definition of obesity below....


Weight Loss: What Is Obesity?
Obesity is an excess proportion of total body fat. A person is considered obese when his or her weight is 20% or more above normal weight. The most common measure of obesity is the body mass index or BMI. A person is considered overweight if his or her BMI is between 25 and 29.9; a person is considered obese if his or her BMI is over 30.
"Morbid obesity" means that a person is either 50%-100% over normal weight, more than 100 pounds over normal weight, has a BMI of 40 or higher, or is sufficiently overweight to severely interfere with health or normal function.

What Causes Obesity?
Obesity occurs when a person consumes more calories than he or she burns. For many people this boils down to eating too much and exercising too little. But there are other factors that also play a role in obesity. These may include:
Age. As you get older, your body's ability to metabolize food slows down and you do not require as many calories to maintain your weight. This is why people note that they eat the same and do the same activities as they did when they were 20 years old, but at age 40, gain weight.
Gender. Women tend to be more overweight than men. Men have a higher resting metabolic rate (meaning they burn more energy at rest) than women, so men require more calories to maintain their body weight. Additionally, when women become postmenopausal, their metabolic rate decreases. That is partly why many women gain weight after menopause.
Genetics. Obesity (and thinness) tends to run in families. In a study of adults who were adopted as children, researchers found that participating adult weights were closer to their biological parents' weights than their adoptive parents'. The environment provided by the adoptive family apparently had less influence on the development of obesity than the person's genetic makeup. In fact, if your biological mother is heavy as an adult, there is approximately a 75% chance that you will be heavy. If your biological mother is thin, there is also a 75% chance that you will be thin. Nevertheless, people who feel that their genes have doomed them to a lifetime of obesity should take heart. Many people genetically predisposed to obesity do not become obese or are able to lose weight and keep it off.
Environmental factors. Although genes are an important factor in many cases of obesity, a person's environment also plays a significant role. Environmental factors include lifestyle behaviors such as what a person eats and how active he or she is.
Physical activity. Active individuals require more calories than less active ones to maintain their weight. Additionally, physical activity tends to decrease appetite in obese individuals while increasing the body's ability to preferentially metabolize fat as an energy source. Much of the increase in obesity in the last 20 years is thought to have resulted from the decreased level of daily physical activity.
Psychological factors. Psychological factors also influence eating habits. Many people eat in response to negative emotions such as boredom, sadness, or anger. While most overweight people have no more psychological disturbances than people at their normal weight, about 30% of people who seek treatment for serious weight problems have difficulties with binge eating. During a binge-eating episode, people eat large amounts of food while feeling they can't control how much they are eating.
Illness. Although not as common as many believe, there are some illnesses that can cause obesity. These include hormone problems such as hypothyroidism (poorly acting thyroid slows metabolism), depression and some rare diseases of the brain that can lead to overeating.
Medication. Certain drugs, such as steroids and some antidepressants, may cause excessive weight gain.

Emotional Aspects of Obesity
One of the most painful aspects of obesity may be the emotional suffering it causes. American society places great emphasis on physical appearance, often equating attractiveness with slimness or muscularity. In addition, many people wrongly stereotype obese people as gluttonous, lazy, or both. However, more and more evidence contradicts this assumption. Obese people often face prejudice or discrimination at work, at school, while looking for a job, and in social situations. Feelings of rejection, shame, or depression are common.
When to Seek Help
You should call your doctor if you are having emotional problems related to your weight, need help losing weight, or if you fall into either of the following categories.
If your BMI is 30 or greater, you're considered obese. You should talk to your doctor about losing weight since you are at high risk of having health problems.
If you have an "apple shape" - a so-called, "potbelly" or "spare tire" -- you carry more fat in and around your abdominal organs. Fat in your abdomen increases your risk of many of the serious conditions associated with obesity. Women's waist measurement should fall below 35 inches. Men's should be less than 40 inches. If you have a large waist circumference, talk to your doctor about how you can lose weight.